I've spent so much time being bitter over things that haven't gone my way, i realized earlier from almost dying in 2012 that self pity is meaningless, and i started living life the way i should have been, focusing more on helping people and living out my dreams, i took a lot of crap this year from the universe. I've lost a lot of dear friends and family. but somewhere along the lines i earned enough good karma or found the right path by following my heart that i earned the privilege of meeting the most amazing person ever. just thinking about him makes my heart flutter. I see heaven in his eyes, it feels terrible to know all i can offer him is my heart and a smile.He's so beautiful that those two things are more valuable than gold to him, and he said i love you first which makes me know it wasn't just him saying it because i said it. have you ever met that one that makes you forget all about every other impacting relationship in your life that tore your heart? I couldn't be happier and i've only known him for about three weeks including the two weeks i spent courting him before driving to charlotte and spending new years with him and the entire week which was to follow. The most amazing week of my life. I have renewed faith in humanity and nothing else matters to me but his smile. have you ever felt that way. and How did i get so lucky to deserve someone so perfect i cant help but to smile :)
and these are the songs that almost describe the level of emotional ennui that i feel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TF_xFlBXBfY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTLnlkrCK8c
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sRYNYb30nxU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMiVeK5zGz8
