chapter twenty nine: Children of Circumstance

I celebrated my birthday last night. Nineteen years old and it seems like at the same time its been just minutes , and yet as if its been a millinea. My friends brittany and i were on the way to syn and sky when we saw my old friend sara kenyon approach us and ask us for directions to greene street, seeing as it was gay night at greene street as well we decided to go to greene street instead. Upon our walk Sara was getting more and more affected by the alcohol she had consumed prior to our metting up with her, but by the time we arrived she was stumbling around in a drunken stooper. About five minutes after we had gotten in the club Security approached us and told us Sara would have to be escorted home. Her friend Nicole who had driven up with her took her home that night. Britney Sarah Fox and I continued on through a night that would only get odder, it started with me trying to find a hot guy to dance with. I spied one i wanted and had begun working up the courage to ask him to dance seeing as i did not have the allure working for me that night. I saw a few people i knew and conversed for a little while then got seperated from my friends. I bumped into the guy i had been eyeing and asked him to dance, ... it was that easy, surprisingly. We danced for a while then both went out to smoke where we conversed briefly and went back inside. We went back in and he stopped at the bar for a bit which didnt bother me as i needed refreshment at the time anyway. I noticed him talking to one of the guys at the bar and noticed the guy he was talking to was holding hands with someone in a barstool i noticed the guy he was holding hands with was my ex Matt Dazzle. I asked him " so how do you know my ex boyfriend" " which one" he replied, " the one in the hat Matt Dazzle" i said  he retorted with " oh hes dating my best friend" ..... a boner was successfully killed. Later on in the evening I saw my friends again after going upstairs, they were sitting on the couch with two random guys, then i saw chris crisp, who i hadnt seen in at least a year. We talked for a bit and then i realized Brittany and Sarah were not around i went down to find them. They were dancing with those random guys i had found them with before, and they seperated when the two guys went outside to smoke, they both looked at me and said Its time to leave, we wandered around for a bit so as to get lost in the mass of people. After about thirty minutes we retrieved our coats and went out the door where we saw Nicole who had informed us that Sara Kenyon had been taken to the hospital for alcohol poisoning. It had been a crazy night but it was not over, we received a call from Josh who needed us to come get him and take him home we proceeded and did what we had to. Its been a strange entrance into this new age. Nothing bad happened to me, although the world around me has fallen into disaray and device, i think that its a sign that im stronger than most. And also a sign that what i have going with austen may be clandestine or in some other way ordained and no intended to be haulted at the present time. In a way im glad because it brought with it a new sense of morality and a new sense of direction.... but for now im nineteen and green and content to be living .. that is all.