chapter twenty three: picking up the tab

this weekend i made the ultimate decision that despite his many attempts to drive me insane im going to get over david zich. i set about this goal starting on sunday night. I went to greene street with Blake Britney, sarah and Britney's boyfriend sebastian. After having her drag her feet we finally got blake to the club and we all had a blast, its was an interesting experience seeing it was the first time since the summer that id seen matt dazzle i somehow managed to be civil with him, and then continued about my night enjoying dancing and chasing after guys with my friends. around the 2 am mark i got a text from my friend victor telling me i should come to syn and sky, i decided i wanted to go, but unfortunately i would have to take my friends home first, i didnt learn until after i had left that there was someone who wanted to meet me at syn and sky that night. I got everyone home and then got home and recieved another text from victor telling me i should come up to the house and hang out for a bit as there were a few people there for an afterparty. I got there and was happily surprised to see a short cute young guy greet me at the door. We managed to get along very well, and after a little time we began to sit together on the couch while watching a movie and sharing my blanket, soon as things tend to turn out we were kissing. This did not go unnocticed, in fact richards friend kyle who was quite tired and enebriated shouted at us, to get a room, to which we happily complied and went downstairs. whilst downstairs we talked and cuddled and gave in to our desires. we then went upstairs to sleep for about 3 hours and then went back to the basement for round two which went on for hours and wasnt finished until it was yet again dark the next day. after which we spent hours languishing about , after which i showered changed and we all went to eat and watch the iron lady. He held my hand during the entire movie. It felt so good to be able to indulge in sexual misconduct with someone and not have them be ashamed of me the next morning. I didnt learn until after how much alike we were, but i think its the begining of a friendship seeing as neither of the two of us are fit for or want a relationship at present. everyones got their cross to bear. The counter side to this event of my life is that the day after everything terrible fell upon my shoulders as things tend to do for me. I had to go to work today which is wednesday after waking up to the realization that my yearly occurance of bronchitis had not taken a vacation this year. on the way back from work today my battery light came on, and now i fear as though my alternator may be shot. Its so bizzarre how a few days ago i felt more alive like the stars had finally aligned in my favor, and now i feel physically miserable, and upset over the wellbeing of my only mode of transportation. i miss my cuddlebuddy but thankfully he still texts me, its so wonderful to have someone to talk to, who understands my point of view as a pisces, and as a twink. we seem to have a lot in common and i truely hope that we have more time together in the future. one can only hope all i know is that was definitely just what i needed.